hello hello! im typing on my new keyboard. so, im finally back in uni after such a loooong time at home due to mco. online classes are great but we have lab work to do so we have no choice but to come back to campus. practical classes havce been great so far and today i have just taken my national forensic exam for the first time/ i hope this will be the first time and also the last time im taking this exam. i heard that it’s not easy to pass, like some seniors took multiple attempts to /finally/ pass it. but i really hope i dont have to waste my time and study (as in do past years) of it again. my english level ain’t that bad for me to fail right :’) 

well, so ever since i came back to uni, i have been having lots of personal time and privacy which is great/ i ahve the whole room to myself and now i cant even imagine going back to having roomates lol. i mean i do miss them but if i have a choice, i would prefer to have a one-person room. im still thinking whether i wanna go back home after an oral exam next wee. i think i will probably go back? i havent been away from home for so logn but surprisingly i wasnt really that desperate to go home/ i was thinking about it and i realized it’s probably because i have total privacy here and i can do whatever i want and sleep however late i want without anyone interrupting me lol. and when my roommates are here, i probably have less privacy and i (maybe) feel more uncomfortable and that’s why i wanna go back to the comfort of my own home/ room.

well, there’s one thing i look forward to though. my sis just ‘redecorated’ our room and we got a new wardrobe so im excited to go back and take a look at that! the new wardrobe i gorgeous and it’s actually our first proper wardrobe!! now im all excited to go back hehe.

so, next week im gonna be having 3 practical exams and 1 oral exam and in less than a week after that, i will be in a new semester. time really flies. i really enjoyed my life during mco though. that life will definitely be missed :”) 

i was so busy towards the end of 2020 and it all got carried all the way to jan 2021. it’s feb 1st today and i’ve finally submitted by research proposal, which means (hopefully) no more assignments and presentations! one thing about the degree im taking that there’s always so many presentations at the end of semester, along with assignments and case studies. i’m glad i made it through another sem but now comes the real deal- finals. finals is very soon after cny and i have to study during cny break TT but it’s okay.

anyways, iu came out with a new song from her new album. it’s a pre-released song and omg it’s so good. then, there’s this celebrity challenge going on and iu’s been going around leaving likes and comments on uaenas posts. i’ve uploaded my entry as well but i think i have no luck in getting her attention. well, im still happy for those who got noticed by iu, lucky them! anyways, i had fun editing the short video. it’s been a while since i’ve done some video editing so i enjoyed every part of it.

now that it’s nearing the end of semester and with cny coming up, im kinda in the holiday mood and have no mood to study at all. im so TTTT i really want to pull it together and get stuffs done but im just so demotivated and lazy all the time. :-) perhaps i need a full rest for one day or so. my mind is always so packed with stuff and im always overthinking but not getting work done ugh.

hope it all will be better the next time im updating xx 

hello! it’s jan 7th. i had a presentation this afternoon and honestly, i think i prepared quite well for it, but due to the sequence. (i was at third last) so the lecturers weren’t really paying attention, plus my topic was quite similar with many of the other students so :( really hoped i would’ve chosen a different/ better topic so that i can grab the attention of the lecturers while i was doing my presentation. ugh :/ i was kinda down but i took some time to draw for my art account and it was really healing. while enjoying my afternoon snacks, oreo and milk heheh. well, i still have quite a few things left to do so i hope i can keep up the hard work and finish them as soon as possible. oh, btw im having a long weekend because no classes on friday so i’m really thankful and happy. i guess i’ll just work a bit on my next presentation and then watch a drama before going to bed. hope that i can be more productive and hardworking this year too! :)

happy new year guys! uni stuffs have been superr hectic and i have been managing a side ig account as well so i dont have much time to come on tumblr. although i still feel like i need to come here once in a while to let out all my frustration or do a brain dump. so, here i am. i know it’s already 2021 but i haven’t really came up with my 2021 resolutions yet. reason being, i ahve been to preoccupied with uni work. TT i really need to make some time for myself. maybe tomorrow, before classes resume again, i really need to sort out my life a bit. felt like i’ve just been busy doing stuff and not really enjoying life for some time, except when i got to go out to eat/ enjoy good food. i have been neglecting my physical health as well, as i havent been working out that much. i used to work out quite often but now i just spend most of my time finishing up my assignments, case studies and research projects. ;; im really exhausted towards the end of 2020 i want to change my mental attitude and start fresh and strong again because i believe i can do it! i have just been slacking off as i was really overwhelemd with the amount of stuffs i have to do. QQ gain strength and come back stronger! i can do it! 2021 will be a better and more productive year. ♡

hey there, so i’ve just finished my midsem exam last week. had a nice two-day rest and now im back to having online classes. it’s that time of the semester where i am basically packed with stuffs to do, like presentations, assignments, case studies and research portfolio. i am feeling so overwhelmed right now. TT i feel like i haven’t rested enough but i have to get back into the grind :”(. there’s actually so much more i wanna do like revamping my art account, just chill and be lazy but i guess i dont have the freedom to do so. :( ahh i really have to adjust my mindset and get back to working hard again. just a little longer to go, hang in there TT. living is so hard, especially during corona, i think im lowkey depressed ugh. i need my life back D:

i recently came to the realization that i might have health anxiety :( i worry too much about my health and i get freaked out when i feel some kind of sensation or minor pain/ discomfort on my body. i work out quite often and following these workout, i sometimes feel sore in some parts of my body and i often over analyze it. why am i like this? i am also not sure but i decided that i have to stop worrying about things like these because it is seriously affecting my life. :( i sometimes ponder on it too much (especially at night) that i lose sleep. it is bad. i really want to stop overthinking and over checking my body for any minor discomfort :( i really hope i can do better soon and i get myself distracted from being paranoid/ over worried about little stuffs like that! 

hello there, it’s currently 11.57pm on oct 25th. tomorrow im gonna be starting my third week of online classes for year 3. i’ve been trying to review and read through the lectures everday after class and i have been keeping up so im pretty proud of myself. not long ago, i bought a new tablet pen so i can actually draw with my surface pro now and im so happy! i also started an ig account for my digital illustration. i hope i can keep running it (which means uni work pls dont be too hectic!)

ive been looking for ways to improve myself and i want to try to find a time to read every day. i mean i used to read but i’m so inconsistent, like i only read when im free and when uni starts i barely ever read. i have a few books sitting around i my shelves that i have read halfway but did’t finish. but since now that i spend most of my time at home, i actually want to fully utilize it. also, i want to keep my body healthy so i have also been keeping up with clean and healthy eating habits. most importantly, i think i HAVE to get back to working out and doing yoga. i think yoga is good for my mind and inner peace. let’s all strive to be out best version of ourselves!  ♡

given the covid situation in malaysia right now, we are not allowed to go back to campus for the new semester, yet again :( we were supposed to be back to campus on 12^th oct for the new school year but just one week before the going back, the covid cases spiked so high that it was wayyy higher than when we had mco. so, we got no choice but to stay at home and do online classes once again. i remembered that i didn’t really do that well for my online classes last sem because im so easily distracted and i got sleepy at times. so, this sem, im gonna aim to stay focused and really study well for the rest of the degree program. i kinda don’t want to have any regrets when i graduated later or so. hope this motivation will get me through the remaining 2 years of my degree. now that i have to once again have online classes, i do hope that i can live in the moment and enjoy it as much as i could as it may really be my last chance at this. also, we are having a research project this semester and i hope to get an interesting topic and a good lecturer to be my evaluator. fingers-crossed. well, my life have been a mess lately because i havent really been doing anything except lazing around and just doing the things i wanna do. oh, i do draw everyday though. well, my workout plan has long been forgotten so i hope to get back to it when the new semester starts. also, we have like another one month plus of online classes before going back to campus so i hope to use this time to like really improve myself, and to make myself proud of who i am.

lately, i redid the mbti test and found out that i have changed from istj to infj. well, i don’t know what to feel about it but people change, i guess. it says that im the advocator type and honestly, most of the descriptions are pretty accurate about me. from what i see, the change in my mbti type implies that i have changed from a more ‘logical’ and more rational person to someone who makes decisions based on their feelings. i do think that it is a good thing though, because we have to feel and all these emotions are what makes us human. so, i guess it kind of a good thing? i don’t know. haha

well, now i hope that my next update will probably be good news about how well im doing in my year 3 and hopefully life gets back on track once again.

hello hello. what’s new? im now on my official sem break for year 2! which means, in another month, i will be in year 3. it’s so soon! im going back to campus on oct 12 so i have around 20 days or so to get my life back together lol. 

so, last time i went back to campus for my lab session, my umbrella broke :( it’s the umbrella that lasted the longest since my foundation time. and so, i oredered a new on shopee. it was pretty cheap but lots of my friends got their umbrella there so i was like maybe i should buy it from there since it usually doesnt take too long for it to arrive. but guess what, my fricking umbrella took like a month and it has still not been delivered to me yet. im low key mad. probably gonna ask for a refund in a few days.

besides,i dont think i am ever ready to go back to uni. i mean year 3? sounds so scary to me :( im like kinda sad that we have to have f2f classes again after so long, even though i miss it sometimes. 

well, im kind of like having mixed feelings about going back but i still have 20 days to enjoy so i think im gonna live in the moment and do the things i wanna do, workout and just take my time doing the things i like? yup

recently, i have been playing among us too and also i really want to go out and get some nice pictures but i dont really go out that often. and im going on a hike with a friend tomorrow. im driving myself ahhH. 

i actually went for a ‘test drive’ that day because i havent been driving but i think i still have the knack of it. hopefully i can drive myself safely tomorrow, probably HAHA

well, that’s all for now, until then. 

hey, just wanna drop by and give a little update on my current situation. i am supposed to be having my last paper tomorrow but the exam got postponed by a day so im technically gonna be free from friday onwards. :> im sooo looking forward to it though!! well, the last paper is the subject i have the least interest in, but i still out to put in a lot of effort and ace it! currently just gonna call it a day and watch some drama before bed. hope the last paper goes well and that i can find a good pharmacy to do my community training. fingers-crossed x.